Day 6

well today was a good day, and a busy one. and some funny stuff happened too. .........................the morning started off good, i actually woke up before the alarm clock was set to go off. crazy huh? i have class at 9 and its 6:30am so i go ahead and shower and get ready for the day. had some breakfast and went to class. class was very interesting today. we talked alot about, well.....i guess i could almost call it common sense. i have found a few statements that i liked while doing todays homework and in class time. i personally like the the theory, or method or whatever you wanna call it that they teach. im gonna give u some examples, im gonna give u the statements i found i liked and if u stop and think about it, ull see what i mean about common sense............

1.sobriety or even moderating use of substances is dependant on your choice to abstain or moderate your drug and alcohol use. the truth is, alcohol and drugs have no power. they are inert substances, not living, breathing, supernatural entities. therefore nothing supernatural is needed to make the choice not to ingest them.

2.first and foremost, you are not powerless nor are you diseased. it takes thought, choice, and physical action to drink, shoot up, or smoke drugs. these things do not happen over your objection or out of your control. a bottle does not leap off the table and pour itself down your throat. a needle does not wrestle you to the ground and stick itself in your body. you have always known this. to the contrary, cancer is out of a person's control. a cancer victim does not decide (choose) to get a tumor one day and then decide (choose) to eliminate the tumor with equal ease on the next day. cancer is a disease. your problem is not even remotely "like cancer or diabetes". your problem is a behavior. behavior is a conscious choice.

3. alcoholism is not a disease. the act of drinking alcohol(or ingesting any other substance)is a conscious behavior. behavior is always voluntary. it is never involuntary. if the word alcoholism has any meaning at all, it describesa set of behaviors, certainly not a disease. behavior is self determined by choice. thus, if alcoholism (addiction) is a disease at all then it is the only disease where cure is by choice. in fact, choice is the only method by which people stop abusing substances.

ok, i know alot of it is pretty much the sme thing, but i liked those 3 and thought id share it with u. its saying we are not sick or diseased or bound to relapse causeu have a disease that will never go away. u chose to do it, now u can chose not to do it. its n ur power. the substance has no power. u have to be the one to say no and to make the right choice. and thats what they are helpin us with.

ok, soooo now we have lunch. and i notice as im throwing my tray away, that i have kitchen duty along with a guy named chris at supper! DAMN! im so not looking forward to this. i hope i can find some gloves. thats alot of freaking dishes. AND the bins the food is in (i think they are called bins, or maybe trays, i dont know....its those things that picadilly puts all there food at the buffet.) and there are 5 of those. and the silverware, (thank god we use throw away cups) and wipe down all the big tables and there are 6 of those. well dang.

anyways, class #2 comes up and i told the instructor that i was falling asleep while reading so i got some cappiccino to wake me up and it did the trick! but i told her that i cant handle cappiccino well but the warmness was really soothing to my throat, which is still sore by the way and i still sound like i swollowed a brillow pad. she asked me if i liked hot tea, and said u bet i do! love green tea with a little honey in it! she told me where it all was so i can make that instead. YAY!! i love hot green tea with honey! i would drink it everyday if i could!(dang, i wanna go downstairs and get some now....but ill wait till im done here.) so, ok....after class i go and sit at one of the tables. there was an instructor sitting there talking to some of the guys. i had just made some hot green tea, found the honey, put it in the tea, stirred it up, yummm! now i just have to let it cool down a bit because its steaming! i was sittin there talking with all of them, and i had scratched the back of my neck right when i sat down, about 10 mins later, i happen to reach back to rub my neck for a second and im like (thinking to myself), why does my neck feel sticky? ok, i didnt think nothing about it for a few mins, butthen i was like hmmmm.....so i reach back there again, and it was sticky, then i feel my hair right there by ur neck, the underneath part of ur hair, and OMG! and im saying this out loud without even thinking, OMG! i have honey all in my hair!! oh it was not just a tiny bit either, it was stuck sticky. only washing my whole head was gonna get this out! ugh! we are laughing our asses off by this time, so i go upstairs to put my hair in a ponytail, and look back there at it, and it didnt look that bad at all it was just sticky, so.....i left it. i didnt want to wash my hair again today. ok, now ive got my hair in a ponytail. problem solved. i go back downstairs and sit back down at the table. we all laughed, and i said my neck is all sticky too! and all this time, im wondering how i got the honey in my hair when i watched all of it go in my cup! someone said , dont go outside, the flys may come after u! then i said without even thinking, "a bee might come sting me!... oh wait, bees MAKE honey!" we all were laughing histerically. so after we finally quit laughing, i walk over and got a napkin and sat back down. with the water bottle that i had on the the table, i poured a little on the napkin to wash off the stickyness on the back of my neck. so im rubbing the honey off with the napkin, put the napkin down, felt the back of my neck, and the napkin had left little napkin wads on the back of my neck AND STUCK ALL IN MY HAIR WITH THE HONEY! so now i have napkin shit all in my hair! so im trying to pull the napkin stuff out and IT WONT COME OUT! i had to get the instructor to get it out! she barely could cause she was laughing so hard! but we finally got it out! geez! i mean wasnt the honey enough?? but napkin too? good lord! so....after that things calm down, watch a little tv, ok, now its supper time. damn. im really not wanting to wash all these dishes! ok, so we are eating lunch, ok, wait...let me back up for a second. we got a new guy today. and he looks like harry off of dumb and dumber. no lie. ok, with that said, i can continue. ok,im eating lunch and i happen to look over.....at the new guy, his back is towards me. and OMG, MAJOR ass crack showing! im talking like 8 inches of harry ass crack! i gag all the sudden and start laughing my ass off! the guy Dan that was sitting beside me was like, what the hell? what is it? by this time, im about to fall out of my chair. so i calm down and show him, and he was like wow....im done eating. omg, how does he not feel that half his ass is sticking out of his pants?? i mean really! well, now its time to do the dishes. i go get chris cause he is to do them with me. ok, let me just say.............this dishwasher they have here is crazy amazing! ok, u slide the trey of dishes in, pull on the leever thing, it shuts, the dishes r done in 2 mins!!! yes! 2 mins!! i so need one!! ok so we walk over to the big sink thing and the washer and it smells like a freaking dirty diaper!im gagging, and then touching other peoples dirty plates! not good! chris says he'll wash them if i put them up. sounds like a plan to me!! so it takes us about 30 mins to do all this and wipe down tables etc. ok, next is our seminar. its on self esteem. and we had to do a game where we write our name at the top of a clean sheet of paper, and pass it around to everyone and they write something possitive about u down. it was pretty cool. found out people like my southern accent....i knew it was bad but i guess it stands out alot up here. this is what i got back on my paper....

friendly and open

from louisiana

love the drawl

very polite person

great laugh

beautiful sense of humor

open for conversation

very friendly southern charm

she's here

very nice

1st out of the 2 females

very nice person

love the accent

good humor

nice accent

friendly

love the laugh

love the accent

beautiful person

so...........i thought that was nice! as u can tell, i think my accent won. but anyways, after that we went to walmart. now we are home. im fixing to go downstairs to find a snack! talk to u tomorrow!